Maybe it’s low blood sugar because I’ve been on a strict diet for 9 weeks. Or maybe it’s the clarity that comes with eating healthy and STILL having people point out your flaws. Either way, I’m over the ridiculousness of other people’s issues being projected on to me. I was a gymnast who worked out 20 hours a week. 20 years ago. Yet it seems like people who knew me then expect me, at 40, to still have that body. Mind you, the people who are flicking my tricep that jiggles are not physically perfect. But it hit me hard.
How dare people make me feel inferior because I don’t look how I did 25 years ago. Or even how I did 8 years ago when I was working out every day trying to compensate for my marriage falling apart. I now have a full time job, 3 kids in sports and a back yard I truly enjoy sitting in with my husband. Why should I feel the need to starve myself, or spend time in the gym when I want to be with the man who thinks I’m beautiful as I am? So that I can avoid the rude comments?? You know a better way to avoid those comments? Avoid the toxic people who say them.
So tonight, I’m going to have a glass of wine with the love of my life (the man who our marriage fell apart, and we rebuilt it together). I’m going to set people right when they try to point out my flaws. How you say? I’m going to remind them how incredible my life is now, compared to when I was working out to fit the vision I thought I should. I fit in my favorite jeans so screw everyone else. CHEERS!